As I sit here with mono – I am just thinking how the hell did this escalate so quickly? Last week I thought I just had strep throat – went to the urgent care (because my primary care is in mass, not CT where I currently live) and I got my penicillin. I then went NYC with my family – thinking I was on antibiotics for two days I should be feeling better…well boy was I wrong. I continually got worse – by Monday I was back home in Mass with my family and went to an ENT (ear nose and throat doctor) – he said I had severe tonsillitis and possibly mono. I thought to myself mono? seriously doc i haven’t made out with anyone in a while (sad but true); so I went to get the blood work. The blood work took to long for me, because I ended up in the ER the next day from severe dehydration – they did the lab there and welp what do you know I have freaking mono.
Anyway, this post isn’t about me crying because I have mono (btw I had no idea how terrible this viral infection was – and I am a nurse). I just wanted to write this post because I encourage whoever is reading this to listen to your body. I probably shouldn’t have went to NYC – I knew I needed to rest and ignored that, because I did not want to miss out on the fun. But, now as I reflect back, I would have much rather let my body heal, get some well needed rest, and drink my fluids than have dealt with this whole situation. Listening to your body is so important. We only have one body, and we need to treat it like a temple. I have found myself lately really not treating myself well. I have been stressed with work and grad school, have been taking naps and not hitting the gym, procrastinating things I needed to get done like grocery shopping, laundry, homework. In the end the reason I think I got mono was because I wore myself down with mental stress and physical stress (working 12 hour shifts for four nights in a row every week). My therapist gave me this link that shows you when you are having a physical illness how it relates to a mental health problem. Mono is “anger at not receiving love and appreciation. no longer caring for the self.” I do receive plenty of love from my family and friends; however none from myself. I think my big point of this point is to love yourself. Sometimes it’s ok not to be ok; sometimes it’s ok not to be feeling yourself. However, after you are done feeling sorry, you need to remember that you are special, kind, smart, funny, loving, beautiful, and a million other things – and you deserve to treat YOU the right way. We only get one chance at this life thing, so why not love yourself throughout it.
“switch your mentality from “i’m broken and helpless” to “i’m growing and healing” and watch how fast your life changes, for the better.”
lots of love from a mono infected individual,
ps: heres the link to the “spiritual causes of diseases” – if like me you truly think that mind, body, and spirit are one (god I sound like a hippie)